I Missed Them

I found my blog I thought was gone.

I reread some posts and can see myself trying to be myself yet hiding behind what I thought others should have me be.  Most of all I see my family then and I miss them.  The picture of us is different now.  Of course.  We should be different now.  Even though some of the last posts many years ago are full of the unknown making itself known I reread those posts and missed those kids.

I missed them so much.  I have to be mindful to be present with them now so I don't miss them now.